I woke up and suddenly i came to know that I was 25 years old this day. When I looked back all these years, all I have is a glorious school life and college life. Now I am struck and unable to move ahead. When I further analysed about myself, I found that the mistake was with me. All these years, I didn't have anything passionate in my life. I didn't stick on to any particular thing. I just did what others did and no one around me instructed or said that it is good or bad, because they let me choose my way.
Time and again, I came to cross roads of my life and become very indecisive and sometimes I laugh at myself for my "lack passion" attitude in my life. I always want to achieve something real big in my life, but I didn't know what to do. It is like taking a white canvas of largest size and having all colors and different sizes of paint brushes without knowing (what) to paint. Many friends were with me so far, and I hope at least some remembers me. Many have forgotten me, though I haven't forgotten them. I guess it is the society and their social commitments apart from their personal priorities, which has pushed me away from their mind. Or also because of my stagnancy and others' progress, due to which I may not be visible in their line of sight.
Sitting in home and trying to attain something in order make people around you happy for 3 years is difficult because I know, and that is what I am doing and unfortunately it is not synchronized with my likes and desire. But life is like that only. People around you expect you to finish certain unfinished business even though you may not like it even a single bit. At times, I also regret why the hell I am still confined inside 4 walls called home. I just feel like going out somewhere unknown and unaware and start a new life out there and I do believe in me and I have the capacity. But by doing so, I will be breaking hearts of many loved ones who were by my side during my troubled times and such an act of mine will turn out be a "real selfish act".
Come what may, I have decided to finish off the task in hand. I know it is difficult. Nothing in this world is very easy. I know, I don't like it. But now I don't have a choice because earlier it was my call and I chose this task. I know, I have to struggle and it would be very bitter. If a nation needs independence from its conquerors, it needs to put up a bitter struggle. To make my life better and not to repeat the mistakes, I have to put the same kind of struggle with myself.
Whatever that has been done, cannot be undone. But, whatever that needs to be done can be done in a better manner.
Chakravarthy
(Dedicated to people of all walks of life)
Time and again, I came to cross roads of my life and become very indecisive and sometimes I laugh at myself for my "lack passion" attitude in my life. I always want to achieve something real big in my life, but I didn't know what to do. It is like taking a white canvas of largest size and having all colors and different sizes of paint brushes without knowing (what) to paint. Many friends were with me so far, and I hope at least some remembers me. Many have forgotten me, though I haven't forgotten them. I guess it is the society and their social commitments apart from their personal priorities, which has pushed me away from their mind. Or also because of my stagnancy and others' progress, due to which I may not be visible in their line of sight.
Sitting in home and trying to attain something in order make people around you happy for 3 years is difficult because I know, and that is what I am doing and unfortunately it is not synchronized with my likes and desire. But life is like that only. People around you expect you to finish certain unfinished business even though you may not like it even a single bit. At times, I also regret why the hell I am still confined inside 4 walls called home. I just feel like going out somewhere unknown and unaware and start a new life out there and I do believe in me and I have the capacity. But by doing so, I will be breaking hearts of many loved ones who were by my side during my troubled times and such an act of mine will turn out be a "real selfish act".
Come what may, I have decided to finish off the task in hand. I know it is difficult. Nothing in this world is very easy. I know, I don't like it. But now I don't have a choice because earlier it was my call and I chose this task. I know, I have to struggle and it would be very bitter. If a nation needs independence from its conquerors, it needs to put up a bitter struggle. To make my life better and not to repeat the mistakes, I have to put the same kind of struggle with myself.
Whatever that has been done, cannot be undone. But, whatever that needs to be done can be done in a better manner.
Chakravarthy
(Dedicated to people of all walks of life)
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